Not for me… for the second-years!
My feelings on graduation are mixed – while there are many second-years I love and will miss dearly after they leave, there are some second-years I will be cheering out of the school gates.
At the same time, I am looking forward (and not looking forward) to going home. It will be really nice to have a holiday – and hopefully a few days where I’m not working on IAs, my EE, university applications etc. – but at the same time I feel as though I will want to come back to LPC the moment the plane touches down. I realized at the end of last term that I have changed, and the people back home seem (to me at least) to have changed. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but it definitely felt a little odd coming back to a place when I wasn’t the same (and people weren’t expecting me to be different). I definitely feel very at home in this school/community, where everyone knows everyone, and secrets are pretty much non-existent. I will be leaving the day before graduation – another one of those things whether I can’t decide to be happy or sad. On the one hand, I will be going home early (yay!). On the other hand, I will be going home early (and leaving the second-years). I will also be missing Music Night (which I am supposed to be hosting – oops) and missing the opportunity to say goodbye to all the second-years. Although I suppose leaving early will be less emotional, and therefore maybe a good idea? Conflicted.
There is another dread lurking in the back of my mind – this will most likely be the last time I ever see some of my second-years, and everyone now is talking about how important it will be for the first-years to spend as much time as possible with our second-years before we leave. The whole “imminent graduation” thing seems to have come very suddenly – one minute it was Chinese New Year, mock exams and Project Week, and then the next the first-years were preparing a song for Graduation Dinner.
Graduation dinner is an annual tradition, where the school gets dressed up and gathers outside Arnett’s house (the principal’s house) for drinks before the second-years are bussed off to a fancy hotel to have a nice meal and reminisce on their two years together. While the second-years were gone, the first-years frantically rushed around to prepare things for our roommates (Tiffany and I tidied and cleaned our roommates’ corners and gave them notes and gifts), and prepared a song and balloons for when the second-years came back. The second-years were really cute – when we were having technical difficulties, they sang us “Hey Ho” – apparently, that was the song they sang to THEIR second-years after Graduation Dinner last year. When technology finally decided to cooperate with us, we sang them a song about living life and not regretting anything. Lots of crying and hugging ensued, and it took a good 45 minutes to get back to my room to change. Pictures of graduation dinner below:
Life is also tinged with some apprehension towards exams – the self-taught students, of course, have their final IB exams in their self-taught A language. All I can say is that I need to do more Paper 1’s before I’ll be ready to sit in the gym writing unseen commentaries! The second-years are on study leave now – some have been studying all day in the courtyard. Let’s hope they all get #IB45.
I just realized this was a rambling, slightly incoherent post about a lot of things. Never mind; I’m a busy girl these days, and besides – I’m sure there will be many more of these to come.